written 2004.06.25
uploaded 2004.06.26

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*blinks* Oh, dear. This made absolutely no sense. I sat and...I suppose you
can say ranted haha. After writing rampantly in my Xanga, I logged off and
wrote some more. After that, I walked into the bathroom to washup for bed,
but had this idea, so I wrote this poem. ^^;; Iono...it confuzzles me,
too.

It started off only up till "you don't care," but somehow my fingers just
had to keep typing. This is the result. Enjoy...I think. X.x;;

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Untitled: Random Love
by Damascus Ochre

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I cry
I cry
I cry
I cry
I realize
you don't care
when I'm stuck in my dreams
not lost, because that's a cliché
I learn to breathe your air
but not to rely on your feelings
I sigh to find that you're not even real
just a figment
of my
imagination run free
finding your heart
tangible only in thoughts
not in dreams
beating gentle
beating smooth
bleeding crimson
coursing blood
like the understanding in my mind
that anger love and peace and hate
and all that jazz is nothing to be proud of
it's all just a part of life
why can't you understand
understand it
understand me
understand why I dream of you
I don't do it because I love you
it's all just a misunderstanding
find it in your heart
the cliché that we're in love
to find that nothing makes sense
this is all bullshit
rambles
rants
flickering thoughts
lingering words
significance is lost in your name
though it still graces my mind's tongue
find yourself
find your thoughts
pull them together
and then realize
none of it fits
everything is different
random thoughts
flying across keyboards on wings of those that understand me
and you
and life
and death
and hate
and love
and everything in between
understand nothing
understand everything
because it's all we can do.