Here I lie shaking in shock and disbelief
Robbed by accident by someone I love
Instant- replay demons fill my mind
With something no one was prepared for.
Some acid residing in the back of my throat
eating away at the connection to my brain
A sour grape as my mind swirls
Not quite grasping all the consequences.
Worry streams out of my pores
As I struggle with the acknowledgement
that something actually happened-
Something that I can't acknowledge
Because it was only a mistake.
Shouldn't have happened
Didn't happen
Never happened
So why worry?
Never thought I would be so giddy to have that
Pain.
That pain which tells me I have one less consequence to worry about.