Running Down the Street

Former shadows of home
Haunt my distant and still forming dreams
The sound of the modem
Connecting late into the night
Interrupts the near peace
Of the house
While I lay awake
In the basement
Lying upon the sofa
Pulled out into a bed
Digging into my back
Like fists
With sharp needle springs
Never falling asleep
In fear of false nightmares
That still call out to me
From a distant
Asphyxiated dream
The window pane
Lads to a rose garden
Lined with a path
Of shattered stone
Each piece representing
Eevery moment i broke your heart
Thoughts of sinking stones
Weigh forever on my mind
As i sit upon this sun burnt hill
Looking at a distant lake
Through a telescope
Observing our past
As it slowly burns out
Into nothing
But a stark field of black
It reminds me of the nights
We used to lay together
In the sun room
On that aweful love seat
Sitting so close
In reality we were so far apart
I could never meet your eyes
Those eyes of unending innocence
Mine full of faded hope
And burnt out dreams
Now i realize we were just kids
Playing house
Maybe that is all
We ever could be
Maybe that is all we ever wanted to be
Kids playing house
Clinging to each other
To take away the unsecurities
Of feeling alone when we die
Our fear drove us to love
And when the ideal vision
Of our house's jaded perfection
Shattered
We fell down
Too broke to climb back up
That light from a distant door
Just too far to reach anymore
It just never felt
So far away as it does now
Remember how
We used to depend on
Each others words
Just to hold on together
To make it through
But it seems forever
When we outgrew each other
Slwoly drifting apart
Till we even lost
That physical connection
We believed would see us through
So why are my memories
Always bringing me back to you
And those distant shadows
That still seep from our former home
Calling us back
Turning us away
Something we'll never forget
A silent vow promised
But i'm coming home tonight
To walk along through
The white washed halls
Forever remembering it all
With only this
I'll never forget a vow
I can never break
So alone in this one bedroom apartment
The "Sold" sign
Mocks my past failures
To be the one for you
To be the one for us