This Place Makes Me Crazy

I want to celebrate a great escape
That hasn't happened yet
I want to go outside to take
The rain that makes me wet
Inspired…
Desired…

I want to imitate an open vein
While wearing only black
You tell me that I can't abstain
Can't even keep on track
Tonight…
That's right…

You don't even have the right to decide
How I open my head
You disrespect suicide
Are you afraid because you're dead?
You weak…
Antique…

You want to try to tell me I'm wrong?
Well, that sounds like a lie
I haven't been alone for so long
That I almost want to die
I never quite understood
How you damaged my life
Now I realise only good
Can ever come from eternal strife
You sleep…
You dream…
I alone know