Broken Promises

My Eyes
Are they still innocent?
Do they deserve to be?
Do they have a flicker of a tear
A turn of regret?
Has the shine forever, truly, fled in shame?

You shove and I hold it against you.
So where does that leave us?
You broke yours so I broke mine.
Every time I close my eyes
That echo of innocence hides.
I see you on top of me
Talking
Kissing
Tingling
And I cringe.

A good time.
Is that the line you use?
Lying in bed thinking of the past
Do you laugh?
Do you smirk?
No.
That's not you.
But I said "stop"
And you said "why?"
And I was led to believe
That wasn't you.

Honest?
In the hell of passion?
Honesty is subjective.
In that room
You were blind.
You were deaf.
And you were driven.
I was scared
I was lost
And I was broken.

Like your prophecy
It fell through.
Now...
Look back and laugh?
Never.
We look
And we ignore
A quick glance
Nothing more
A judge of where we stand
You have no right to smile
Because I can no longer sit back
And Laugh.