I don’t want to be this
Not this age anymore
Or have I ever wanted my age
This is not about a child wanting to grow up
Because it would be fun
This is about someone not fitting in
Feeling of loneliness
Not wanting what is expected
To be wanted by me
Not understanding why
Just simply why
I feel the way I feel
A hole that everyone can see
Will this hole be filled
The hole makes you feel alone
Different
More so the casual different
Like no one understands
I long for years ahead
Not to drink
Not to stop school
Not just to be older
But to get away
To a place where I fill my hole
Where I fill my life.