Just a little sick or disgusting.

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The world is at war.
But all I could do is stare at the screen
As brothers and sisters kill one another
Not knowing they were killing each other
Even though I looked normal from the ouside
Watching the blood spill
My soul was eaten from within
Tears trickled down my cheeks
As a sword went through bones
I touched the place where it was cut
The thought of pain penetrated to my brain
As I hugged myself
Saying over and over I was safe
I griped my arms tightly
Wanting to feel the pain of the dying ones
Scratches appeared under my nails
As it dug into my flesh
Am I going mad?

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This is weird.I don't really get it when I wrote gives me
the thought of when I watched a war movie.(I forgot the title) The older
brother was fighting with his younger brother without knowing it.
In the younger brother killed the older the mask came
the older brothers younger one went mad from
spilling his own brothers in the end he killed himself.