Theres so many questions running through my head every day...

What will I wear tomorrow?

Should I go to the gym tonight?

Will I have time to finish my homework?

Eventually all the questions get worse and worse...

Will I fail my next test?

Will I cry myself to sleep tonight?

When will he finally realize that he would be better off without me?

Until I finally cant take it anymore...

When will I finally give in to he razorblade thats been calling out to me?

When will my brother actualy come home?

Why cant I just be happy with who I am?

Im losing it...

Will I ever get to lose myself in a cloud of smoke again?

What will be the day when my mom finally gets pushed over the edge?

Will I ever see even the smallest amount of worth in my eyes?

I just want to give up...

Would anyone even give a fuck if I was gone?

Will I ever feel like I belong anywhere?

Will I ever decide who I want to be in this life?

And leave this world forever...

Will I ever be good enough?

Why cant I just be happy like everyone else?

Will my friends ever accept me for who I am and not try to change me?

Why cant I just leave?

Who would even miss me?

All I do is bring people pain... especially myself.

Whats the point to it all?

I just want to leave it all... forever.