You want to know what I think? I think you're neglecting me and you have
been taking me for granted longer than I can remember. I think that this
"friendship" thing we have is completely one way and the only reason we
even talk today is because of me. I call you a friend but I can see how
much I mean to you.
So no more.
You do as she says because you're so afraid of being alone. Haven't you
realized that you've been alone all along? Your fear is only pinning you
down and it has blindfolded you to the point where I'm not even sure if I
can get you back.
I'm not even sure you're worth it.
I have been trying to come in and share your problems, your worries because
I cared. I did everything I could while you pretended to listen but you
would turn your back and force me out. All I can say is that I've tried.
Which is way more than you can say. If you ask about a problem, it's out of
curiosity. You never try to help me, you're never even there for me. There
is so much about me that you'll never know because you never took the time
to be a friend. You're too wrapped up in your own problems and feeling
sorry for yourself to ever open up and consider helping anyone but
yourself. You're self-centered and cold and I am sick of trying so hard to
get so much as an answer from you.
Maybe you've been telling me to fuck off and stop prying for a long time
and I never listened. But the only thing I tried to do was be there for you
and you never returned the favor. I wish someone cared about me the way I
cared about you but I can see it obviously hasn't happened. Well fuck you.
You think I'm going to let you take me for granted? There's no way I'll
just sit back and let you treat me like shit.
So the only thing left to say is that I'm sorry for caring. I'll stop. I
mean I know we had something last year, when you listened and there was a
part of you that was still alive. I've lost you now, I've lost you to her
and it's hurting me more than you'll ever know. I can see that you're gone
now so this is where I let go.
All this time you've barely noticed the things that change while I grow up.
You've pushed me away for the last time. So thank you for making me
invisible. This time I'll stay away I promise.