Sunk down again
Have been here before
Stroke the velvet walls
and peer into the darkness
Looking for you
I know you’re here somewhere
My old friend

What am I worried about?
I know that all will be well
My mother can die
My friends can fade into the past
And life goes on
Until it stops
And by that time, it’s too late anyway
So what am I worried about?

Unanswered questions
and I turn to you
You are the only one who knows how to respond
Without bringing the illusion crashing down
Your deep, soft voice
Lulling me into velvet sleep
And velvet sheets
Rest against my cheek
You cradle my heavy head
And lighten the weights on my heart

In the depths of this place
I can close my eyes and lose my mind
and imagine that the world goes on
Without me
Happily
And that I have no part to take
No role to play out
No point in being
That is why I like this place
So much

A gathering of old friends
Smiling in the sad dark silence
Accepting fate as a cloak of inevitability

Finally
There’s a place for me