How could I have been so stupid,
To hurt you like that?
Didn't I know it was wrong?
Didn't I know I would lose you?
Why did I have to think the world was on my side?
Why couldn't I have said no?
Did I think life would be perfect,
Hurting the one I love?
Did I think that you would let me
Continue to destroy us?
Even though I looked around that fact,
Was I so blind to think I could get away with it?
I'm sorry beyond words,
That I thought I could live like that.
I didn't think.
I should have.
And now I can only remember,
What we used to have.
I never knew that it would be like this.
It was all so perfect.
You loved me.
I loved you.
But I didn't know how to leave him.
I didn't want to hurt him,
But I didn't know that not hurting him
Hurt you worse.
I'm sorry I was so blind.
I love you more than life itself.
The same life I threw away when I broke your heart.
The same heart that had been hurt before,
And saved by me.
Only to be hurt by the one who saved you,
Worse than before.
I don't know what you did to deserve that.
Maybe by loving me?
If that is the case,
I'm sorry my love hurt you.
But I'm not sorry we love each other.
Not then.
Not now.
Not ever.
I love you,
And you love me.
Forgive me for almost killing that love,
And our chance,
And you.