What's the use
Complaining here and there
Being on a short fuse
Saying more than I can bear
Missunderstand
Breaking through to see
The pathetic juices soaking into every gland
Distorting who I am to be
The blood drains from my eyes
My flesh crawls with anticipation
Rewarding me with swollen glands
Until anticipation suddenly becomes suffocation
My nails tear the flesh from my bones
I can't see because my eyes are gone
I crawl amongst the blood stained stones
Thinking what have I done
I'm just me
The only person I can be
I tear at myself until I bleed
This is how I have to be
Hands are roaming everywhere
I cover my ears and cry
I wish I was elsewhere
Even floating in the sky
Deny myself
Run away from who I've become
Burn myself
Scorch my lung
The heat travels down
Spreading through my body
Licking my frown
Traveling soundly
Coating me in the sheer tranquility
Like a mist in the early light
My shadow is almost it's twin of equality
I don't even have the will to fight
Taking a deep breath
The snake slips down my throat
Through my breast
Causing me to choke
Falling to the floor
Dropping the matches
I'm inches from the door
The lock latches
The snake slithers away
I watch its' fiery embers that it leaves behind
My mind begins to stray
As my mind goes into rewind
The heat fades away
Night turns to day
I'm inside the house
Holding it close
The stick of death
Held tight in my grasp
I need to start to regret
Having that cigarette