I cannot sleep tonight
Something just isn't right.
So I walk through the darkness
Afraid of what I might find.
I want to turn back,
But I know if I do
I will lose my mind.
Street to street I search
For what?
I just don't know.
He told me he was okay
But there's something I just cant let go.
Pulling my jacket tighter
On the warmest of night, I still feel a chill.
Why did he have to do it?
Why did he need that thrill?
My heart falls apart as I spot his broken body
Kneeling by his side
I scream to the heavens
Why had god deceived us?
Why had he lied?
I cradle his head in my hands
It's the only thing that I can do.
His eyes slowly open
He winces with pain
As if this is not bad enough
It starts to rain.
Gazing upon this once perfection
I can only cry.
I cant let the man I love give up
I cant let him die.
Tears mixed with blood
Blood mixed with rain.
I saw why he did it
He wanted to kill the pain.
"I'm sorry that I wasn't enough, I'm sorry I couldn't help.:
His hand in mind, he shook his head.
"You were never the reason I wanted to be dead."
He spoke softly and then looked away
He was ashamed that the only person he'd ever loved
Had to see him this way.
My eyes search around
I spot his self destruction.
The weapon of choice
Warping his perfection.
I scream again, this time in pain.
He looks at me, it breaks my heart.
I wont let death tear us apart.
Time stands still, I waver my choice.
I cannot live with out him
I need to hear his voice.
Weakly, I take the mistake and make it mine too
Time resumes
He watches helplessly.
'I love you so much, you wont go alone."
I whisper in his ear.
He shakes his head
As he spoke, it was the first time his voice hinted fear.
"No, you cant go with me, its not your time. I've sinned too much, I must
pay for my crime."
I shake my head and force a smile.
'Never will you be alone."
He can no longer protest.
Its almost done.
The poison taking full effect
He is the only one.
I grasp his body in fear
As he starts to drift away.
I kiss his lips to pass the time
There is no one I can blame
But myself.
And as he died in my arms
The world slipped away.
Seconds now, before I die.
Leaving this world with only one question
Why?