Dysphoria Euphoria

I’m pushing just to breathe,

And nothing’s coming out.

I know I won’t survive this,

There isn’t a single doubt.

It’s taken over me,

Like some evil plague.

My thoughts are separated,

Scattered, blurred, and vague.

I’ve lost the strength to walk,

Lost the will to think.

I’ve gained nothing from this,

And my soul’s beginning to sink.

The weary nights I spent,

Have stretched into days.

Now every waking minute,

Is spent in a painful haze.

All sense of comfort has left me,

I forget the feel of safety’s arms.

The night in all it’s glory,

Has downfall in its charms.

It’s weighing down my actions,

It’s weighing down my heart.

If I was as wise as they said,

I would’ve avoided this from the start.

I’m pushing just to breathe,

And nothing’s coming out.

I know I won’t survive this,

There isn’t a single doubt.

Fatigue has finally caught me,

In this wonderful disaster.

It’s pulling me in deeper,

And I am no longer the master,

Of my thoughts…