To Live is to Die
I hide behind this mask of fate
Of happiness, here I wait
I'm no more than a cruel being
An unsure, unstable, child of living
I lie for pleasure and tell truths for pain
And I continue to again, and again
I hate, I hurt, I have yet to kill
I have zero will power, no will, no will
Here inside, my bleeding heart does flow
But all you see is my smile, a glow
True pain, I have yet to feel
I'm waiting for it, the pain so real
And even if that devastation does come
I'll strike it down with the first blow, just one
I'll dwell in that past of pain and pleasure
Until I reach that certain kind of measure
And then you'll feel me slip away
As I try to keep these tears at bay
But as always I shall fail
I'll burst, I'll cry, I'll sob, and wail
And you'll just stand these when all is done
Laughing at your eternal fun
I won't forgive you, not a chance
I shan't spare you a second glance
But I must and I will, for I am still young
And these fine threads, fate has spun
I see everything on and all
So once again you watch me fall
Right into your arms, the way I hate it
But your face will be bright and sparkling a lit
Because once again you've won for sure
For I must come out, the only failure
The darkness will engulf me kindly,
For death loves me even if strangely
She loves my pain, my tears, my smile
And she wishes I could stay a while
But i have to go away right now
For a failure to live, life will not allow
You will smile as my slate is wiped clean
And I'll be reborn with a brand new gleam.