Where Am I?
Where am I?
I'm lost and confused..
I have no where to go..
No one to turn to.
I've come to a dead end..
There is no one there for me..
No one cares enough..
The world just turns away..
It has to use for a pathetic individual..
That has no purpose in life..
If you can't fight with the world..
Then you will just be runover..
By those stronger then you.
So where am I?
I'm back where I started..
If I ever left that place..
I've felt that I have..
But I know it's not true..
Because if it were..
Would I feel so hopeless?
I want to have hope..
I want to have faith..
But it's hard..
When you can't find anything..
To have hope for...
Or anything to have faith in.
I've had people in my life..
That gave me a reason to get up..
Each day and live..
But those people have long since left my life..
People that I didn't even know..
And people in my life here..
I guess that's just how it is.
I guess no one wants to be there for me..
I guess no one wants to love me.
Well.. I don't deserve love.
No one likes me.
I've been told this.
Many times.
No one likes people like me..
I've been told that as well.
So, I guess that I don't deserve love.
I don't deserve anything..
But pain and misery.
I guess I'm getting what I deserve.
I feel I've come to a dead end.
No where to turn..
No where to go.
I'm in a small little box.
No top and no bottom.
I'm just suspended in nothingness.
The nothingness my life has become.
I don't know what gives me enough will to get up every morning.
Maybe one day there'll be someone..
But how do I know that I can stand living..
Until then?
Was there ever really anyone there for me?
Seems like everytime I find someone..
They turn away because I can't handle anything..
I'm not strong enough to handle anything.
All I have is false hopes.. false dreams.
Nothing real.
A false life.
I live my life in another world..
Where all there is is me and myself.
I don't need anyone.
But I've never felt this lost and confused.
I guess that's all there is.
I guess I'll make it through alone.
It doesn't matter.
If I died.. no one would notice.
People would celebrate.
I guess soon it won't matter where I am...
So I won't have to ask.. where am I?