Like a flower, born into the shade
Drowning in the overwhelming darkness
As no light touches even a speck
I am afraid

In this ocean of apathy
The ominous undertow pulls me in
I have no control of the motions
The sickening waves have their way
With me and I am defenseless

Crawling towards the shore
It is all I can do; just crawl
I am too weak, too frail, to walk
On my own two feet
And actually get myself somewhere

It is so dark sometimes
I trick myself into seeing light
False light pulling me inward
Caressing me like warmth
Like sometimes the water is so hot
It almost feels cold

With myself I am timid
Shy of the obstreperously bound
Seeking safety in lonely corners
Afraid of what is real
Because what is real has always
Seemed to hurt
But it’s time for me to step
Forward and into the light
Out of the darkness and strife
Of being stranded on myself

8-20-04 _ 12:31 pm