A Soldier's Last Thoughts
Everything is clouded
Nothing seems right
In the thick darkness
I lose my sight
I look for my companions
But I can't see a thing
Inside the terrible fight
I can't spot anything
Noise
Noise echoes in my head
Bodies
Bodies covered in red
Everything covered in blood
Everything covered in dust
And on this ongoing madness
Only myself I trust
Too many innocents
Too many dead
All stuck forever
In my head
We we're fools
We promised to keep them at bay
Now I have no choice
But to disobey
Is there really a reason
For this senseless killing?
Is there really a reason
For the pain I'm feeling?
Death may be
My only escape
Suicide could be
My protective cape
I'd rather die than kill
I prefer sanity to honor
For the last thing I want
Is to give my family sorrow
I'm not a coward
Even though I'm afraid
And I doubt my heart
Can withstand another raid
This is not my fight
This is not my war
I keep forgetting
What we're fighting for
Help me, Lord
To get through the next field
For the weapons I yield
Are cold and without feeling
Just like the bodies
Of the thousands we are killing
A bullet finally reaches me
And I run out of luck
But my mind is consumed
by one final
thought:
Forever it will be cursed
Forever it shall be damned
And it's our entire fault
So sorry, Vietnam