Lavender happiness through sifted thoughts
my medicated companion
there for me when tortured laughs
abandon my call

polished smiles tell of a world outside my own
a place of falsified glamour
and glimmering days
weeks
months
where happiness resides
normality sits unabated
and where I don't exist

I see from afar
what mannequin humanity sees from within
they exist in inconsequential bliss

I fall through a reality outside their own
in mind and body I fail to exist
plasticine lives wait for me
at the end of it all