What Drives Me

What drives me to go through this time and time again?
I pick myself up but fall down so quickly
When have I ever given up faith in you?
When the green grass was doused in white
I held my heart in my hand and carried on
What drives me?
I have this insane urge
That maybe this time it will be okay
Maybe this time the world will right itself
But this sickly spinning is somehow comforting
It keeps me okay and humble
Realizing all is not perfect and I have things to achieve