A/N: This is a real letter I wrote this afternoon to some one I really care about. Whether he'll ever read it, I have no idea. Oh, btw, his first name is NOT James. I changed it because, well I don't know why. BUT, my name really is Lisa. I've poured out my heart and soul into this story and I hope you really enjoy.

Dear James,

I honestly don’t know why I’m writing this, but I need to tell you something.

To be completely honest, I don’t know why I like you, but I do. I never expected it at all. It’s just, when I first saw you, I thought you were so cute, but what made it even better was that we had a connection. I could talk to you about any and everything and you would listen to me, I mean really listen. You always knew how to make me smile and I loved that! I’m so sorry we never talk like that anymore. I miss it more than anything. We rarely talk on IM, but when we do, you seem distant. Like you wish I would just leave you alone, and it breaks my heart every single time. We never even talk on the phone like we used to so long ago. Every time my phone rings, I pray to God that it’s you on the other end, but it never is.

I must seem so stupid to even hope you might feel the same. I can't help but hope. Hope is all I have these days. At the risk of sounding cheesy and stupid, I miss you. I really, truly miss you with everything I am. No one understands me like you. No one could even begin to come close. I know that's a lot to say, but I have never meant it more than I do now.

You always made me feel so good about myself. You lifted me up when everyone else put me down. I never thanked you for that. I felt important when I talked to you. You made me feel like what I said really meant something. I loved that feeling and I never wanted it to end, but it did. God, I miss you so much.

Why did you stop talking to me? What did I do to drive you away? I'm so sorry. I'm so very sorry. I wish you would come back. I wish I could do something to bring you back. I wish you would talk to me. I know you're confused about so many things and I wish with all my heart and soul I could make everything better. I love to see you smile, to know you're happy. But we all can't get our wishes now can we?

I'll never forget the way you made me feel, nor will I forget the happiness you brought me. I'm just sorry I never realized sooner how much I need you. Maybe then it wouldn't have come to this. I know I will never forgive myself for letting you get away, but it's too late. I fucked up and I know it. I don't expect this to make anything better. I know this letter isn't magic. I just thought you should know, for my sanity, how I really feel. This is straight from my heart and I hope you can forgive me.

I'm so sorry.

Always,

Lisa