Too proud
WHY?
Why am I so proud to not take a chance?
Why am I so scared of a bruised ego?
Why am I so scared of humiliation?
I can't resist you god damn it
Why can't I just walk up to you and say it?
I can tell you everything else
I laugh with you, cry with you and comfort you
Why can't I tell you I want to be more?
More than a friend
More than a best friend
Why am I so scared of rejection?
I don't think I am actually
You would let me down gently, that's how you are
You would tell me calmly that you don't think of me in that way
But it would get out that I like you
People would laugh
And it wouldn't stop
Ever
It would always be there in the back of their minds
Waiting like a crouching tiger
To pounce and remind me with a sneer
I would get over it
But there would always from then on be awkwardness between us
And I don't want that
You are one of my great friends
And I don't want that to diminish
I
Could we be more?