The words I now impart to you
Are nothing but the truth
I am the only left to tell
Of my awful, troubled youth

You ask me what I stand to gain
By living far apart
Now listen well, had I a choice
I'd never lived to start

I grew up in the tower rooms
Of a broken, dying land
My father sought to capture me
Put me beneath his hand

But I was wise to his deceit
He thought only to his ends
He'd kill the one who'd broke his dreams
He'd rule and make amends

My grandmother was innocent
She'd done him little wrong
Yet still he strove to take her head
His fury then was strong

Led so astray by bitter lies
His rage grew uncontrolled
A madness swept into his heart
And turned it pale and cold

I lived so far away from him
I scarcely knew his state
I could not see the depth of it,
The never-ebbing hate

I was the plan that he devised
I lived behind her lines
And only I, her 'loved child
Could break through her confines

He knew he'd never talk me into
Killing her myself
Yet somehow I would lead him in
And guide him with my stealth

My father offered me his pardon
Offered me his love
When all my life he'd hated me
Or so said those "above"

And what was one in my position
Liable to do then?
I did not trust him over much
Yet did not know his plan

So warily I let him through
The only unwatched gate
He kissed me then and gave his thanks
Left me to contemplate

It was the early morning when
My loyalties were thrown
Three gunshots shattered all the peace
In all my life I'd known

We found her in the gate room where
My large mistake was made
The fool I'd been was then quite clear
It pierced me like a blade

My friends for me held little pity
Knew what I had done
They sought to cast me from their halls
But I'd already gone

I'd find a way to make amends
She would not die in vain
And as the world around collapsed
I near went past insane

On a dreary moonless night
I stole back to the keep
I wandered through the passageways
While all there were asleep

I came upon the chamber where
Two broken swords were laid
Their warning had been wrought in blood
A price that must be paid

I was a maddened, blinded fool
Like my father was before
I poured my soul upon their blades
And chanted out their lore

The next day came with cheery brightness
I would never see
Those swords had stole my mortal life
Passed on their curse to me

And now my life had changed its course
My father lay forgot
I'd live until the curse worn down
Or child, I had begot

Alas! I'd never even thought
Of what this all could mean
I made myself invincible;
The consequence obscene

I never did forgive myself
Or have shaken off my guilt
It's been three hundred centuries
And all it's done is built

The words I now impart to you
Are nothing but the truth
Although they seem impossible
Misleading and uncouth

I am the perfect element
Here in my present state
I live a thousand lifeless lives;
I must endure my fate