I'm Not Driving Anymore
I spin into the darkness;
I've got headlights in my eyes,
Time is moving so fast
Can't you see we will collide?
I'm trying to stay on the road
But I am losing control,
It is my destiny to stand
And endure the cold.
I struggle against the blizzard,
Fighting for my future,
I cannot give in
To this torture.
The road is dark and
I don't know where I'm going
What are the seeds that
I was formerly sowing?
I think of my friends
While hope remains,
But when their faces dissipate,
All that hope; away, it fades.
I think of my family
And the things I should not have said,
I soon realise with regret
That I will probably never see them again.
I slump into the snow
And begin to embrace my demise
But I refuse to give in to the enemy
Whom so passionately I despise.
I cry out to God
As I whisper my final prayer,
With him all my secrets and
Broken dreams I now share.
With strength of faith
I can win the war
But if I close my eyes
I won't drive anymore.
- M.T. 2003