All Thanks to you
I cut myself to see how red i am with rage.
I see deep red, the deepest red imaginable.
the hatred has sunk in and taken over my body and soul.
All thanks to you.
You my beautiful lion the one I thought was precious.
All thanks to you, the one who has torn my heart
I rise each night with glowing eyes.
I stare at you and at a blade that I wish would reach your neck.
There must be life in me. A little ray of hope to soothe.
That little bit of love that holds the blade back.
But the love is growing faint and the blade is slowly getting nearer and
nearer.
Ready to slice anything in its path as you sleep, unaware I'm there.
You dream your happy dreams of the things you love the most.
I know I'm not in your dreams otherwise you would care
that I'm sitting here covered in blood that is drying out.
You would help me but I now know.
You would rather see me suffer than to see the childish joy in my eyes.
The life in me has almost gone
and that means I don't have long.
I must do it, do it now
I must find a blade somehow
and slice your rotten little neck
then the vultures too can peck
at your worthless corpse as you try to breathe
as you shake, choke and bleed.
Falling to your knees wishing you could of saved me
As I lie here on the bathroom floor
cutting myself wishing i was no more
And Its all thanks to you that mums walked in and seen me here
A cold corpse like you staring into thin air but no look of fear.
I never feared death. Because death cared more about me than you did.
My brother came into the room and on my blood slid.
Stood up screaming, god he was only four.
All thanks to you and that whore.
I want you to remember its all thanks to you.