Dad,
I've been watching you and mum and I've seen a total life change for you both.

Sue is tearing up a strong, wonderful family.

I've always felt that you and I have had a very special connection because I was born on the same day as you. True, not the same years but on one else in the family has this very special thing. Sadly at the moment, it feels like Sue has got a large sharp knife and is slicing our connection right down the middle. This letter is basically me trying to fix the damage that Sue has done to the family.

Am I correct in thinking that you've known Sue since you were like 13?

If so, as time goes by people change and Sue has properly changed a lot since. I've gone from a hippy to a Goth in less than a year. Big change. I've gone from a shy mouse who hates staying away from my family to a 'very happy to meet you' person and guess what! I'm not that freaked out about staying away from home now. And its mainly thanks to Lianne and those who have encourages me to go out and put up with my screaming!

I want you to wake up and look at you life. I want to realise how much you are hurting mum and the family.

We will all be lost without you especially mum. Your the love of her life and EVERYONE is suffering in their own way from all this.

I think your under the impression that its only mum and you who's depressed and confused about this but no. EVERY single person in the family is going through it too. Everything you and mum go through the family goes through too.

You said at the table when we went to dinner with Wendy, that you wanted to be friends with Sue but am I right in in thinking that you still fancy her? Well, What if, in the future you find yourself liking her more than mum? Then what would you do?

What what mum and the family do? Where would we live? How would we live?

The family would not exist. Ross and Sefton would have to move out, and mum would have to look after Lewis and I, teaching us, feeding us all on top of going to work. The amount of stress you would be dumping on her already over filled shoulders. Charlotte would have to move out I really cant think how badly this would affect Arran's' dream of being famous. We wouldn't be able to keep the house.

Only God knows what all this will do to the court case!!!!

I would have to decide whether I still want to talk to you. I've grown up all my life with you and mum holding a strong, happy family together. But I think all that will be in vain if you make the wrong decision and go with Sue.

You and Mum have always been there for each other. You've been through so much rubbish that life has thrown at you and you've both come out smiling happily together. Are you going to sit back and let life's challenges that you still have to conquer walk over you and mum causing you to split?

You've gone through the worst and you've come out as strong as ever and I think that's really impressive and that's why I've loved and admired you and mum and looked up to you both knowing that if I follow you, then I'm making the right choice.

All of my friends have told me that their parents ruined their lives when they split up. I don't speak to most of them because that's how messed in the head they are. I would rather eat a cows nose than go to that state of mind but at the moment with all that's going on, I'm slipping away.

Most people don't want to know me because I snap at them and I'm rude and generally mental.

I hate myself at the moment too. I've been writing on a note pad how much I hate myself and I took that round Lianne's (forgetting the stuff about me was still on there) she read it when i was out of the room with some of her friends and at the moment they are all a bit freaked out. They think I'm a bit messed up. I proberly am but I know that I'm sorting it out and I hope this letter helps. I really don't want to lose my Dad over someone whom you've known for a few years. I think your better off with with mum because you two are absolutely perfect for each other.

As long as you and mum stay together I will always be proud of you both as I've already put because you have gone through so much and come out so much stronger and to any one that is so impressive. This is too poetic for me. I'm supposed to be a goth! He he.

PLEASE wake up and smell the coffee and realise that you and mum are stronger together and a tornado couldn't separate you. Realise that this business with Sue is so stupid and futile. Look at it. If you go with Sue, you will lose your wife who's loved you for many years, You will lose your families love trust and respect and all you will be left with is Sue. Then maybe when she's got you all to herself she could wake up and realise how silly this has all been and dump you and then you will really be with nothing.

But if you stay with mum, she will still love you and i will be able to respect you on a different level and I'll always know that I have my dad by my side. Sue will be losing you but hey! She has got her family and will move on. She has survived all these years without you and I'm sure she will be fine.

I looked at that picture that you showed me of Sue and mum and I stared hard into Sues eyes and I knew then that you should stay with the woman that you have raised a really strong impressing family together, mum.

You and her created a really strong set of people and I know when I get married I wont be known as one but deep down in my heart I will always be a member of the McLellan family.

Think about it please. Think about how many people this is affecting. Your breaking 9 different peoples hearts for one woman. How stupid is that.

There is nothing more I can say apart from don't be stupid and blind. Look for the rope that mum and the family is holding out to you from the top of the pit.

Silly I know but that's what I feel. I really hope this letter helps.

D x x x x x