Lying to myself

Sometimes I wonder
Why do I lie to myself?
What was I lying to myself about?
For you or me?
It was never clear
And it was never certain
Maybe I'm just crazy
Or maybe I'm just mad
'cause I never really understand
Did I ever stand in your heart?
Or were you just lying to me the whole time?
But one thing was certain
That's
No matter what happen
You will still stay there in my heart
Now and 'ever