I'm so lost anymore
I don't know who I am
Or what I seek out of life
I just can't seem to find the answers
That will help to get me through this
Where can I turn
For all of the help that I need
And how could they help me
Even if there was someone who could
I feel guilty
For feeling this way
Disgusted at the thoughts
That constantly run through my mind
And self pity at the thought
Of whether there is really anything wrong
I would like to ask for help
But I don't know where to turn
I don't believe that they would truly listen
Just asking questions that don't pertain to it
Making me talk about hings
That I wish only to leave behind me
I often wonder if I will ever be free
Left alone away from all this guilt
And the sorrow that clouds my mind
Diminishing every single wonderfull thought
That dares to enter
Trying to spread its seed of happiness
Only to be poisoned
By the hatred that devours my soul
And runs in the blood through my veins