I can't control it.

I've tried,
You know I have, but
It's never good enough and I'm never
Strong enough to resist
The temptation.

Is it temptation?

I crave it,
This temptation,
This searing pain accompanied by
Millions of beautifully blissful
Bloodred droplets,
Decorating my skin
With my own absurdly intricate
Designs.

I'm hurting.

I don't know how to
Stop this insanity, this unholy
Punishment, and I wish
You would take my hands
And numb my pain
Before I give in to
The temptation....

My own temptation.

You're the only one who will
Stop me
Before I destroy myself.
You're a drug, intoxicating and
Decidedly effective
When dealing with people,
Crazy like me.

I think I'm fading.

It's all happening too fast for me to tell
And I can't be sure, but I think
I can feel you here.
These errant thoughts of hope
Are all I have left,
But just so long as I can feel you,
I'll resist the temptation....