Crying Out

Crying out in my sleep
Words I dare not speak
To this world I owe no dept
My secrets I shall keep
Words have no emphasis
Actions show nothing
Scratching at air
Filling me, tearing me, taking me there

Down I go
Down the hole
Screaming and pounding and telling it no

Help me dear God, I don’t want to go
Darkness consumes me
Death’s knocking at my door
Help me dear God, it isn’t my turn
Rhymes of children, laughter I hear
Help me back up God,
I’m not supposed to be here

Down I go
Down the hole
Screaming and pounding and telling it no
Help me dear God
I’m not ready to go