It scares me

Wanting to let go

But wondering what could happen

If I ever did

I don't want to be hurt

Pulled to the ground

And dragged around

Not knowing what I would do

If I went through it all again

Whether I could take the pain

Or stand the pressure

That weighs so heavily on my shoulders

Staring at that which could end it all

Releasing the pain that is felt within

Leaving me numb to the world around

But left with the constant memory

Of what used to be

Always together or so you said

Being the little girl that I was

Tempted to believe you

Thinking it to be true love

But once again I was blind

To all that I really felt within

So I tell myself...

Well what if it happens again

Wondering if the risk is worth it

Or even the love that I might feel

That could all diminish in the end

Questioning whether this dream

Will ever come true

Awaiting the day

That I might have the chance to be with you

But somewhere deep within

I know that this is a risk

That I will be able to take

Knowing that you will be there for me

Feeling your love

That secretly surrounds me

And looking into your eyes

Seeing that there aren't any feign feelings

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