This Bloody Hate

I hate you

For the things that you do

Making me feel like shit

And breaking me down

With all the things you say

I can't stand these things

That must constantly occur

The way I have to look outside

And see the sun shine

Wondering why i'm not out there

Included in the joys of life

Questioning why I even exsist

The reasons I must stay here

And suffer from my surroundings

Why must I be torn down

Every waking minute of my life

Trying to fake the happiness

That no longer occupies my mind

Will I ever be free of this constant agony

Or the sorrow that plagues me

Trying to find a cure

Knowing of only one release

Not wanting to resort back

To such dark tendencies

Never wanting to feel

The excitement that rushes through my veins

With the cut of the blade

As the guilt overpowers me

Quickly deleting such thoughts

Covering them with lies

That will never be understood