Lilith does not ask to be forgiven, since she has no God
for whom she may redeem herself. Havah lives and breathes,
and we are all one and the same. When Genesis was written,
they didn't know I'd be born to destroy its truth.

Chu'a, dark-eyed, smears the shallow purple across his mouth.
Static spreads, a strychnine cloud, with the lake deep
and complacent beneath. I will not be another one of the wives of Christ,
if all I am is married goods.

Samael says to look in the mirror, see the
the pallor in her cheeks, the sable coke-bottle glamour of
wide eyes cast in chiaroscuro. he says he wants this,
but late at night I'm not sure he exists.

Let's watch The Exorcist again,
so I can be sure I don't have ambivalence. To ensure
there's no such thing as fear.

Oh, it's a nuclear snow tonight. The new testament says
that Arthur lives, an example of how hawk-eyed lovers tend to fade,
tend to become killers. if I could build myself on him,
a castle with a castigated heart and only my bitter body to give.
if in June we stayed sweltering and sweet. like the caricature of
sex and dominance says, it's not my fault I'm drawn this way.

Here is the young girl's paradox: either your halo is your
collar, your chastity your leash, or you are only wanton.

How do I become? How do I ascend?

I gave away what even whores defend. Sold my soul to the devil
to prove myself at being more than female. To show him how cruel
Mary Magdalene has become because of her misinterpretation.

To prove that I cannot be solved.