No one notice

Author: essenceofthedark

Author’s note: I don’t think this one needs any explaining…

Inside myself I scream but no one pay attention to my agony

If I live my life as a dream or a nightmare doesn’t really matter as long as I

can reach the infinite in the end.

I scream I wail as load as I can but I’ve lost my voice, no one can ever

hear me. I’m bathing in fire and sleeping on thorns, but I have done

that so long I’ve become numb

to all the pain or almost.

How come I can’t feel all the while I’m wincing in pain

that’s everlasting that

never goes away, it won’t go away ever, will it?

I ask myself but no one answers

my unvoiced questions that flow over inside, questions

I know the answer to, but will never find them.

Am I

turning crazy? I ask myself, yes

or no but no one will answer me, I cannot hear them, they cannot hear me

through the void of inner turmoil all

sound drowns in it and will never

surface on the other side. And still no one can hear my pointless screaming

and no one would ever care even

if they were able to hear it, do I

want them to hear my wails, yes I say

but I lie. I want to bury it deep inside my heart

and forget, but not seeing that as an option I continue

to conceal it the best I can, but

it is not good enough and still

no one notice, I’m falling deeper and deeper into my own void

my own heart so avoid of emotions and still so empty of them

they’re filling the space up and still it is not enough

to make them surface but still they surface time and

time again and still

no one notice, but what does it

matter no it doesn’t actually

but still it does, I’ve learned to live with it and yet

I haven’t and so my screaming goes on and on and still

no one no one notice, because I does not want them to and still

I hope no one notice and still I hope someday someone will notice

but at the same time and still I don’t want you to notice

no, not you and no one else either and still I

scream and still

no one notice