Struck Out

Inside my head is a raging maelstrom

Nothing is spared and everything is consumed

Blurs into a confusion of violent proportions

Now I am walking blind presumed

Body’s on fire, pricked a thousand times

“You did it you cunt,” they cry with every touch

My eyes see nothing but the floor

And my lips don’t ask for much

Landed on my soul, splintered beyond repair

Hold me now, share me now, hide me now from the glare

Of countless disappointed faces

Hidden in those far off places

Always out of my reach until I’m soaked in shame

Speckled with doubt, it’s always the same

And in you I have someone to blame

So fuck you now, I hate you now, I need you now

But you see me and so you don’t want to be near

A pariah, a devil’s messiah and such a disgrace

Run along child, the bastard has infected this place

And hold my hand tight dear

Feel the tremors of my sobs

You’re laughing now, you’re pointing now, you’re happy now

I have fallen, I have failed

Nobody else but myself, and those distant faces

So as the last light ebbs away

I bow my head and my final words I pray

I’m crying now, I’m broken now and I’m dying now