I hate me

I hate me

That’s all I can think

I hate my ugly face

My ugly body, my ugly self

And they all knew it

They hated me too

My life is so depressing

So sad, so pathetic

How many times has it crossed my mind?

To end my life, could you even call it that?

To live, someone must care about you in some way

In any way, love, hate, in revenge, in fear

But even that, I don’t have anymore

I’m an empty shell

There is nothing in me, nothing in my head

As a kid, I was hated

I was imperfect, a creature from under a rock

A person who did not deserve to be

Who still does not

Now I am a nobody

A shadow – ignored

How I wish I could have once again

Their burning hate

This indifference is worse

It’s slowly but surely killing me

Acknowledge me!

Know that I exist…

Hate me, fear me, I don’t care

Just assure me that I do still live

That I am not just a figment of my own

Nonexistent imagination

Am I alive?

Do I exist still?

Am I now just another one of those

Who walk the earth with nothing?

A walking dead – breathing yet lifeless

A waste of space

Maybe if I die, then someone will finally care

Then I too shall exist again

Beyond the grave, as a memory

Better than what, now, I am.