For Baby Girl B

Lost Days In the Middle of You

If I could only count all the times I said what I didn’t mean

Wash away all the scars that make me so obscene

You started with B but you ended with me

And I guess that’s what they call catastrophe

You live in a moment I cannot reach, lost in days long since past

Beyond the sky and a reality that’s fading fast

So I guess I will sit here for a while

And maybe you will find me wearing a smile

Somewhere down the road to nowhere

Where shackles are broken and life passes without a care

In a new world of make believe hope and impossible dreams

Where everything continues but nothing is what it seems

But I guess you just can’t beat reality and that’s my pain

Feeds and grows, covers me like an invisible stain

Pollutes and dilutes everything that I try

To forget and move forward into the waiting lie

So if tomorrow never comes and yesterday is lost

I guess I will still sit here and contemplate the cost

Lost identity and I can’t let it be

Cos what made me was Baby Girl B

So as I sit and contemplate I can taste my regret

Rolls the curves of my face but what does it expect?

We played with death even though we knew we would lose

But in the end I figured it would be my life he would choose

And now it’s gone

Deeper and deeper still and the bastard has won

You are the salvation I can no longer touch

You are the hope that asks too much

Cos what matters most to me has been taken

And deep inside my heart is finally breaking