It was too late

When you came flying

Through the door

To find me, dying

On the floor

Were you shocked,

Upset, horrified?

That I lost my will

To stay alive?

Mortified

That in my eyes

Gleamed triumphant joy

For my demise?

Confused

You didn't see the signs

Of a crazy-insane unstable mind

Didn't realize how right I was

When I called you blind.

It's too late now

I'm almost gone

But before I leave

Know you were wrong

Assuming you knew

How I felt inside

You missed my plan

For suicide

Else, I wouldn't lie here

I'd be safe asleep

And the cuts in my arms

Wouldn't run so deep

They'd be scars of the past

Of incidents run

I'd be okay now

Dreaming of fun

The plans for tomorrow

What lies ahead

But what is my future?

I am almost dead.

You time ran out

There's no way to save me

So you'll watch me pass

Your darling, your baby

Who you knew so well

Though you let me slip away

Thinking that my life was

Merry and gay

Just teenage angst

Normal, every day

But each night my light

Faded away

Never recovered

But lost in the dark

Eating away

At my cold, lonely heart

The pools of red

Are staining the floor

I think I see angels

At the door

Everything is blurry

One minute, please wait...

It's no door at all

But a grand pearl gate!

Everyone is smiling

While tears run down their face

They say "Welcome home"

To this perfect place

I know that here

I'm perfectly safe

But I wish you would have

Rescued me

I felt like I was drowning

In the sea

An ocean of madness

Responsibility

I needed help

A figure of guidance

I felt like my life

Was drying up, spent

Forget about that past

I live here in Heaven now

And I peer from the clouds

To watch your mortal's ground

The earth that I left

Brings me great pain

I wish that I could go

And try it all again

What I learned just now

By watching from above

Is that all you need

To live is love

And I had a lot

But I washed it away

With my tears and blood

Though I should've stayed

I realized this all

Too late, too late. . .