So far from me, yet so near
Literally
I’m lost without her, yet I can’t even look
Can’t even say a word
Without breaking down inside

Lost in the depths of my soul
Crying out
For peace
Solace
Some release

Ascending into consciousness
Descending into anarchy
Syncopated feelings of lust
Of love
Of freedom, that I now have
But I don’t want
I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be loose
I want to be clutched
I want to be grasped
Taken into your arms, like before

Again
You’re so far from me
The unattainable
Beyond my comprehension

As if in another reality
Another time and place
I can see you
Hear you
Laugh
With him
Them
Anyone
But I cannot touch
I can feel
But only pain
Only hurt
Only bursting
Slashing

Shine like the star you are
Far
From me
But shine none the less
Call out
But I cannot answer
I long to answer
But your not calling me anymore