Waiting

The tears are flooding, I cannot see
There's too much pain to handle in me
I don't know how to feel anymore
I won't know till this is over

If you don't care, then that's just fine
I'll probably lose my will and cry
You thought I was strong, but I'm really not
I'm as weak as anyone, possibly weaker

I'm not as strong as you are
I'm sorry if I make you sick
I try to hide what I feel
But you know anyway, always

I don't say things because I care
I worry and I want to be there
But if you don't want me,
Then I can't do anything

I guess it's useless to keep on trying
I'm sick of hiding, sick of lying
But if I act cruel, I'll just feel worse
I'm not cold to any of my friends

Not like you are to some and not others
And I see no point in telling you how I feel
Since you act as if you don't care
And that doesn't make me feel any better

I'm a soft-hearted weakling, now you know
My loved ones hurt me wherever I go
I may seem song, but it's just my mask
I'm no stronger than any other person

But I wouldn't run away from you
There'd be no point in that
I may be a weakling,
But I'm not afraid of you

What more damage could you do anyway?
You've already hurt me deeper than death could...
So if you want, just kill me
I stand before you, waiting