I Can't Help It

I try so hard

But always fail

To please my parents

Everyday they come home from work

Always finding a fault in me

A fault in my doings

Everyday I ground my anger

The urge to shout at them

I love them a lot

But yet I fail

To do as they wish

I get slapped in the face

With the words they use

And yet… I try so hard

They want a perfect daughter

Something they'll never get

I'm far from perfect

And always will be

I have my faults

And I know them well

But hard as I try

They get the better of me

Leaving me helpless

Defenseless

To the words I must face

When my parents come home

Oh would it be but a dream

That one day they'd come home

And praise me

One day they'd come home

And be pleased with me

But I know

That in real life

It was nearly impossible to happen

It was just a dream

And a dream it would remain

The tears come spilling out

I know this is wrong

I shouldn’t pity myself

It's totally pathetic

But I can't help it

That the tears come out

That it's beyond my control

I can't help it

If I'm angry

If I'm sorry

If I'm hurt

If I'm trying hard

But failing

I can't help it

If... the tears fall