insomnia

words pale
meaning lost
(fever-stolen)
soothing cold

.sweat d
........turn again
..........in your bed
......imperfect heat
so he said

guilt, pain
relentless shame
with every drop,
it comes again

tears or sweat?
cannot sleep
knowing somewhere
he's not alone

(but, then, it's worse if) he is
perfect -
..........
.......
...
- (misery is all he brought)
you tell yourself
(not quite) believing every word

racing thoughts (of him with her)
everything (, anything but that)

glaring red (your face, your shame)
alarm clock towers, machine-cold
(like him)
so late (too late to gain comfort from a friend, sobbing self-lies into wires)

so you keep it inside
its so hot (but you're cold inside)
whose fault?
you struggle (to fall)
a sleep like death

.

A/N: style inspired by writings of silverdream139
check her writing out . . . awesome stuff