Why can't I find a way?

These thoughts in my head

Torture me every passing day.

I want to destroy my past

My past that destroyed me

The things that have happened

The things I will always see.

I don't want to remember

What occured back then

But the horrors are engraved in my mind

I recall all; what, how, why, and when.

When these memories return to me

All I want is to be no more

The things I held close to me then

Have continued to break down the door.

I think only that these memories

That flashed before me so fast

Are nothing like the world today

And will forever remain in my

cherished,

cursed,

loved,

hated,

my unforgotten past.