Dimensions of Reality

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Life is a summer day-

Beautiful, majestic-

Love sprouts from every face

Even the darkest souls unite...

But we aren’t fine

We are NOT

And we can’t live like this

I can’t die like this

I am NOT your bitch

Your whore

I am NOT an excuse

A demeanor

I loved you, and you danced with my heart like a child on a carousel

Round and round we go

Love-hate relationships always prevail, don’t they?

I’m broken inside, can you see it?

It’s not your fault, you didn’t cause this

I did

Damning myself for all that went on

Can’t you see you were my god?

Every time you turned on me

Screaming, like a mother at an abused child,

I bled for it

Do you know what I did to myself?

Of course you did, you loved it!

Every time a scar formed on my heart

I tore it open, exposed my love

And the dirt in my thoughts would fall away

Droplets into the barren soil, from a barren soul

My mind would ease, accepting its lesson

Only to discover another demon lived,

Brought to the surface only to be seen by your prying eyes

And you leapt, blade gleaming as you offered it to me

My salvation living by a brisk edge

The life of the forsaken

What was I to you, a rag doll?

Some beautiful nothing?

Thank you for my education

But I believe it’s time for my final lesson

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Heather M. 13th Dec. 2004