Disclaimer: I own this poem, and it comes entirely from my imagination. If this poem sounds like any other, it is purely coincidental.

Authors Note: I submit this poem for you to read. Please note that this poem is rated ‘PG - 13’. If you are offended by mentions of adultery and lust, then don’t read it. For the people who do read it please review when you’re finished.

AN: I found this poem gathering dust in my drawer, and updated it a little. It’s really very old but I felt like seeing what the reader response was. Some of the phrases are a bit juvenile, but bear in mind that I wrote it ages and ages ago and also that the person in the poem is quite young as well.

I thought...

I thought it wouldn’t matter

I thought it’d go away

Everything got that much sadder

Everything’s not ok

I thought it wouldn’t matter

But that’s not the case

Everything just got sadder

I no longer feel safe

I thought the whole thing might just stop

I used to think I knew you

I never thought you might’ve forgot

I guess I thought you’d be true

When you look at me

Who do you see?

The me I’ve been?

Or the me that’s me?

You look at me with your eyes

And I can tell you can’t see me

You can’t see the me that’s inside

I want to be free

But I’m trapped by your lies

I thought you’d realise

That I know what you do

That I’d figured out your lies

But you continue with this ruse

I thought that you would stop

You’d stop your little game

You’d realise that you’re not top

But you carry on just the same

I’m trapped in your danger

The person I once knew

Has now become a stranger

I have to line up in the queue

I try to talk to some one

But he always defends

You although you don’t deserve it

This nightmare never ends

I thought that I was right

That I knew you all the way

But now I realise I can’t fight

What you’ve already given away

Oh why do you cast aside

The love I’ve given you?

You can’t seem to realise

Whose love is true

It’s tragic the way you lie

The way you’ve betrayed us

It makes me hurt deep inside

All for one moment of lust

Our family ripped apart

By your selfish needs

A poisoned silver dart

A broken string of beads

Yet, my mind does not rule

I find that the feeling in my heart

Isn’t hate, it’s love that wins the duel

Singing melancholy like a lost lark

How I’m desperate, how I ache

To change the emotion that filters through

To change the love I feel into hate

To cast you again as my sworn foe

For maybe then I wouldn’t feel

The pain that numbs my mind

Maybe then I could start to heal

The tears with which my lungs are lined

I thought it wouldn’t matter

I thought it’d go away

Everything got that much sadder

Everything’s not ok

I thought the whole thing might just stop

I used to think I knew you

I never thought you might’ve forgot

I guess I thought you’d be true

Author’s Note: This is a One Shot poem, so please don’t expect me to continue and update. I hope you liked it, but even if you didn’t please review anyway. I would like to see how readers see this poem, and whether I should keep it or chuck it in the bin. So you can decide the fate of this one…

May blessings follow in your footsteps,

Ethereal Kisses