And I have done horrible things....

I know the difference between wrong and right

I'll never try to deny it

I try to find a word that describes me

But "insane" just doesn't fit.

I have visions of pain and torment

Each and every night

I feel like everything's crashing down

But my sanity remains in sight.

I don't understand why people think

I'm violent and uncontrollable

The reality is I have a good side

And one that's virtually inconsolable.

I think disturbed thoughts

Behind an innocent smile

I dream of your death

Earning honor roll grades all the while.

My name is Christian

And I have done horrible things....

....and I have NO regrets.