The Sensation

I never knew pain could feel this good

I watch myself bleed so I can feel like I should

The pain is such a sudden rush to me

Cutting myself just comes naturally.

To see the blood run down my thighs

Reminds me that I’m still alive.

No one understands the reasons I do what I do,

But it’s ok, because they don’t have to.

Heather L. Johnson

August 2003