I want you but cannot have you

I long to put my arms around you

I can look but cannot touch

God, I feel I need you so much

I do not understand this mad obsession

The state of affairs requires my concession

For to you I am only a dear friend

A confidant maybe, but that is the end

You are too naive to see what I truly desire

To enrapture your senses and engulf you in my fire

My heart can take it but my body says no

Passionate dreams of your touch possess my mind so

I know there's no way this dream can be real

You can never know the way you make me feel

For if you did, I could lose what I have of you

The strength of my desire, I cannot put you through

Yet I wonder if you feel the same as I

Just waiting for the chance to look into my eye

Longing for my hands to pull you to my caress

Tasting your passion and heat while pulling off your dress

Oh, how can I deny the manic dream of your love?

If my heart could take it then how, I can never dream of

But this choice is not simply mine to make

For if you deny me, I lose what’s at stake

That I want so much more than your friendship is true

Yet my desire must not risk what I have of you

I would rather continue dreaming of your touch

Than lose that sweet smile and laughter I love so much

At first I thought my feelings were just of lust

But now I see that you are who my heart does trust

I must be the silent companion who stands by your side

If the seas become stormy I’ll be the one to turn the tide

I will hold your hand in the darkness and brush away your tears

No other but I could defend you from the shadow of your fears

Perhaps in the closeness we would then share

It would be safe for our feelings to lay bare

I swore an oath to always protect you

A childhood fancy, but one you cling to

For my desire to hurt you, I can’t condone

And so I do wait, hopeful, yet quietly alone