Author's Note: The lyrics used are from the song My December by Linkin Park. This means I do not only those pretty words in italics.. But the rest is mine... so enjoy.

My December
By: Jorda K. Terre

I can sometimes remember a time when I wasn't like this. Sitting on this old couch with legs pulled up against my chest and my face buried between them. I can remember when the fire wasn't the prime source of warmth to me. When winter didn't seem so long and I didn't hope so much for the summer to return. But here I am, with my head buried in my knees as tears dampen my clothing. I no longer favor the winter and summer always feels so far away. But sometimes, I remember a time... when I was with you and this was all different...

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone

It seems so long ago that you were here and everything was fine. I was happy and complete and you were always here with me. We would sit here, in this room and on this couch, and I'd be in your embrace as we watched the flames dance as if in tune with a song. But I know it wasn't very long ago when that unfaithful day occurred. Words were spoken back and forth without thought or halt. We had both said things we probably didn't mean. I would give anything to take back those terrible words I spoke to you. And there are times when I wish you had never heard any words I had said...

And I...
Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed
And I...
Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that
And I...
Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed
And I...
Take back all the things that I said to you

When I really stop to clearly think about it, there's only one thing I want. To be back in the place I could call home without any regrets. To be back with the person I loved without any regrets. But now it's once again December and I'm still alone. Snow covered trees and my snow covered home are the only friends of my lonely heart. And I know I couldn't call you and beg you to return. I'd just end up acting as if I was perfectly fine. That life after you was the best thing to happen to me and my isolation was all I'd ever need...

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
These are my snow covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need...