The truth the lies that are hidden within,

Are everlasting reminders of my undying sins,

The memories of a time long past,

Will always remain in my heart.

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Promises I had made, broken.

Things that I have done, rewritten.

Lives that I had helped, destroyed.

Is there no end to this weary toil?

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Cold unforgiving harsh reality;

Wake up accept my destiny.

Face the life that I had created,

Desire for freedom unsated.

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Cruelty clipping my wings,

An abandoned girl trying to sing,

Lost in dreams of yesterday,

Who knows if I will ever find my way?

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Some emotions never fade,

They grow stronger with each passing day,

If I had ever a chance,

There's just so many things I have to say.

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If only you knew

If only I tried

If only you stayed

If only I could turn back time

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Look for the girl with the broken smile,

What if he had stayed awhile?

Waiting for the guy she loves,

Knowing she wouldn't get anything in return.

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Foolish dreams shattered illusions

Finding out knowledge which burns

Maybe what they say really is

Maybe ignorance is bliss

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Hope arrives when faith is giving out,

Revives life when unsought,

Offers energy to a dying teen,

Who only wishes to remain unseen.

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The flame of false hope shining bright.

Reality intrudes into dreams- defied.

Most prefer their world of fantasy,

Who is left to care about reality?

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Mirror images reflections of oneself

Look into his eyes and see yourself

Deep mirror endless oblivion

Flaming desire love unfrozen

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They say God will say us all,

His son will be our salvation,

He supposedly died on the cross,

I am still walking into damnation.

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Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself,

When has my life been anything else?

My thoughts my dreams my lost innocence,

Were all just lies and illusions.

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Childish dreams I once was like them,

Just absorbed with 'life's challenges',

"Mom and Dad will take care of everything

Never worry, go to sleep now darling"

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Once belived there was a God,

Heck, I even believed in Santa Claus.

Sometimes I wonder what happened to all those dreams

Guess they faded when life didn't turn out to be how it seemed

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Maybe I am how I seem,

Just another self-absorbed superficial teen.

Obsessed with clothes and (not) grades,

How long can I keep up this facade?

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Imaginary ghosts of history,

Always return to haunt my memories.

The lure of pain constantly tempts,

The darkness the omnipresent death.

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Her heart aches from wounds time bared,

Her only home is where troubles led,

Those she has long accepted her destiny,

There's always that question "why me"?

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A prisoner of truth, of time,

Chosen to bear life's cruelty,

Clipped wings- the fallen angel,

She's slowly losing her sanity.

She's small and the world's big,

All around her is everything,

No matter what disaster falls,

She will survive, rising above all.